Autumn

I think this one is my favourite, it looks amazing, aw

I don't know what's happened to the weather in the UK; it was so sunny and warm and lovely until like a week or two ago. Now, its just bleh (as an A-Level English student, my use of descriptive language is just baffling) It's been cold and rainy these few days and its been an absolute nightmare trying to get to school. But today, it was a sort of perfect end to the half-term. It was quite cold in the morning but on the way home, it was just amazing and sunny. The leaves were blowing in the wind and it just made me feel really happy. I walk that way everyday, seeing the exact same thing everyday but never noticed it until now. I took a few photos to prove just how beautiful it was.

Something about a bright blue sky with white fluffy clouds makes me smile so much.


I love the colours of Autumn, like when the leaves change from green to orange; it looks like something from a film. Everything just looks sharper and just God damn beautiful.

Is it just me or do you love the sound when you step on a leaf and it makes that
really satisfying crunch? Oh, I love it.

The wind came just as I took the photo
but it actually turned out really good.

It's so great when the colours change because that's when you know its one step closer to Halloween. And before you know it, its Christmas and we've already done a whole term. Its funny how fast time goes when you get back to school or work, and I really think that this year is going to go so quick. Gee, how time flies...

The Future

Recently I watched a video by a YouTuber called Bertie Gilbert and he pretty much summed up everything that I've been thinking recently. He's the same age as me and he had the same worries about the future. I felt like I could relate because even though I'm only 16 as well, I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. It sort of scares me that there's a whole world of possibilities and I still can't pick which one I want to spend my life doing. People say that you should do things you enjoy doing but I enjoy loads of things. How can I pick one? At Sixth Form, we've already had an assembly about university and it panicked me. How am I supposed to pick a uni when I don't know what I want to do?

For years, I wanted to be a translator because it provides you with amazing travel opportunities and I really loved doing languages; even though I loved learning Spanish, it was hard work and I wasn't prepared to do it A-Level. Then I wanted to be a Clinical Psychologist because I loved Psychology at GCSE. I remember my teacher asking me and she seemed absolutely delighted with the idea because that's what she had wanted to do but had gotten into teaching
Psychology instead. I honestly thought about doing this for my career and even looked into universities that specialized in Psychology degrees. However, when I started doing it A-Level, it just wasn't how I thought it was going to be. I was seriously considering dropping it but decided to keep it in case I change my mind. Another career option I've thought about is something to do with English, I've always loved it and that's why I started this blog. I thought it would be a good experience that helps me to develop my vocabulary and sentence structure. I also like being in charge of something that's mine, I control everything on here and it makes me feel happy that I can create something like this all by myself.

The last time I thought about my future career I wanted to be a journalist but now I'm not so sure. The media is slated so much and to be honest, I'm not sure if I could cope with that. I'm so confused with what's going to happen. Soon, I'll have to choose a degree to study and what if what I want to do, I haven't chosen the right A-Levels for. What if I have to start the whole year again with different choices? Or what if I go to uni and decide that I don't want to do that? How much of my life will I have wasted before I realize? That scares me.

My Maths teacher at GCSE was so passionate about his job, he would talk about how 'Maths was the foundation to everything' and how 'we wouldn't be here without Maths'. Loads of people thought he was totally insane but I knew that he just loved his job. He loved Maths and what's wrong with that? I want that (whether that's with Maths or with anything). I just want to be happy with my life. I want a job that makes me happy. I want to be able to walk into work every day and know that I'm doing something good, you know?

If anyone feels like that, let me know or you can watch Bertie's video here.

High School VS. Sixth Form

This isn't even half of my books and folders, hm..

UPDATE: I've officially completed 4 weeks of Sixth Form and I'm still glad I made the choice to go there. I'm really enjoying my A-Levels so far (I started the first week on the 3rd of September). I've met all my teachers and I know where all my class rooms are apart from General Studies (we're in different rooms every lesson and its frustrating walking around desperately trying to find where we are). I've had 35 pieces of homework and fortunately I've handed them all in before the deadline which is good. In every one of my classes I've got a friend who I can sit next to so PRAISE THE LORD.

(I decided to write this post on a few differences I've noticed between my high school and my Sixth Form, this is completely subjective and your experiences might be a little different but I wanted to write this anyway- enjoy!)

Tutor:

Something that my Sixth Form does though that I hate is called "Personal Tutor Time" where you spend 25 minutes every morning with a group of people from Year 7 to Year 13. Since my high school didn't have a Sixth Form, we only had Year 7's to Year 11's; we had tutor twice a day and didn't really do anything in that time. But in Sixth Form, we have "challenges" to complete which I hate and we have to sit in "families". This means that we sit in groups with one person from each year and are supposed to "socialize". We don't. Not only do I not know who they are or their names but some of them are only 11 years old and its weird. I really miss my old tutor from my school because I knew everyone there and we were ACTUALLY like a family. We had quarrels and arguments and I liked it; we were also allowed to sit where we want rather than being forced to sit with kids we don't know.

People there also call this time "Tute" which sounds so gross. Me and my friends have promised to never call it this; it will always be TUTOR.

Lunch:

Just two of my many early alarms, boo

In my high school, lunch was from 12:35 to 1:10 so we quickly had to get our lunch and eat whereas at Sixth Form, its 50 minutes long. Urgh. Me and my friends eat our lunch within 20 minutes then just have to sit there for what feels like the longest time ever. Its just so boring. Its probably the only time in the history of the world that anyone has ever said "I really wish lessons would start"...

The walk to school:
So, I have to leave my house at half 7 to get to school for half 8; that's right, you heard me, it takes me an hour to walk to school. Urgh. Luckily, the actual walk itself isn't bad, there's only 2 or 3 little hills which isn't too bad. However, its sooooo looonnnnngggggg- me and my friends get to school and we're an absolute mess: frizzy hair, red cheeks and sweat. Attractive huh? It's worse when it rains, trust me. I walked into Maths 10 minutes late, literally DRIPPING. My makeup was slowing sliding down my face, my WHITE collared top was practically see-through (I was wearing a woolly jumper on top that kept sticking to me but I couldn't take it off because I was wearing a black bra underneath, I'm a fool, I know). It was terrible, just terrible. This is when I wish we had Tutor in the morning so you could sort yourself out before lessons.

General Studies:
I've spoken to a few people in my classes and none of them like General Studies which is strange because I really enjoy it. At the start, I was a little bit iffy because I was told that most universities don't really count it as an A-Level but once we got into lessons and into the swing of things, I began to like it. My teacher is so good, he likes to say a statement at the start of a lesson (usually about something controversial) and then just lets us argue with him about whether we agree or not. It's very rare that we even write anything down, he gives us homework every few lessons and we don't actually have to do it. It's basically like research for the next lesson and he just asks us what we think about it rather than getting us to write an essay and hand it in to be marked.

There's this one particular girl in my class who lets just say is very... opinionated. She's very articulate in the way she explains things that a 16 year old should not even care about but she does. Now, I thought I was argumentative but compared to her, I'm basically a pushover. You can guarantee that if our teacher says something, even if its just for a reaction from the class, she'll be the one to talk.

I'm not sure if I'll do it for the full 2 years yet but so far, its cool. I like talking about things like social change and feminism (I'm such a crap teenager, its unreal). Anyway...

My Timetable:
My timetable is awful. I hate it. I have to be in school every single day at half 8 whereas some of my friends get a 2 or 3 hour lie in, damn. I only have one day in the 2 week timetable (we have Week A and Week B which is something else we didn't have that in my old school and now I keep thinking I have a lesson when I have a free because I look at the wrong week) where I leave school at 12:10. This is because all of my frees are either Period 3 or 4 and so I have a lesson after lunch whereas everyone else has frees Period 5 so they can go home at the start of lunch or Period 1 so they don't have to come in until half 9, make sense? Probably not. However, the only good side of my timetable being like this is that I usually get given homework from my teachers then have a free straight after so I use the Study Centre to do the work and hand it immediately. This basically means that I give work in a week early and don't have to do it at home (YAY FOR BEING A NERD).

Now apart from that, there isn't as much change as I thought there would be- the work doesn't feel a million times harder like all my high school teachers said it would (I may have just tempted fate). I think it might be because its a school AND a Sixth Form together which is why it doesn't feel that weird, I guess. Hm. Anyway, that's my thoughts so far on Sixth Form and how it compares to high school, hope you enjoyed it :)